Publishing every day was the ideal, and it wasn't so much the idea of "oh I want to be able to tell people I posted every day". Although that would have made for great content. It was more so because I wanted to catch up. I missed a couple days in Jan, but I made up for it. I missed a few days in Feb, and I tried to make up for it. Basically just ate the fact that my daily goal was ruined, and moved on.

In March I've had an even harder time, essentially missing the equivalent of two weeks worth of daily content. Now there are a variety of factors for this: lack of motivation for one, extreme stress (that has even manifested physically in a few ways), stressed about someone I care about and their safety, and internal pressure to finish this Content Blitz.

This post isn't a "blog" in the normal sense, as it is a public journal/notebook. To allow me to express my thoughts, and writing helps me flow the thoughts into a cohesive picture. I just always think might as well publish it, but it usually doesn't follow a standard blogging format. Rather it is just simply a way for you to get a glance at my internal dialogue in a way.

I've had some amazing guests on the Creator Spotlight show, and editing their interviews took way longer than it should have. Which means I'm lacking drive, and it is a clear sign to me that I am burning out. As they were really really good conversations.

Politics for the Non-Political

The global geopolitical climate is stressing me out as well. Of course a person I meet and got close to, is in a country where the US happens to go to war with at the same time.

Overall making me more inclined towards staying informed about what the demented orange man does in the oval office.

Even outside the US there are a lot of changes happening. Over the last year, half a dozen prominent revolutions have taken place (i.e. Nepal). The global market is quickly (way more rapid than most people realize) shifting away from the United States Petrodollar, and more often than not going for the Chinese Yuan.

I personally view the world from the POV of a global citizen, and not a US citizen. However being someone that lives in the US. Not to mention will have to deal with the consequences of this change, as will the rest of the country. This is going to spiral the US economy downward for decades to come. 90% of this negative outcome is due to the reigning populist leader running the country into the toilet. The remaining 10% of the change was already happening, and would have happened regardless. Such as with the global supply chain already being strained, and the Chinese shipment carriers going through the North Pole for deliveries. While the US is largely behind in that region.

Gaming to Stave off Depression

One of the only things in my life that has caused me peace, and in some ways to relax: is gaming.

I made a video today about it "My Love for the Legion Go 1 and Bazzite OS for Gaming", as I have been pretty astounded at how easy this combination has made it for me to game.

Allowing me quicker access to pretty much all of my games. I had recently added most of the games into my Obsidian Backlog folder/database of games to keep track of. However having one device that can play it all is really awesome.

I've been wanting to play Octopath Traveler 0 for a long time, and I finally got it. Even though income is low right now, I needed something to distract myself, and it was on sale. It is something you can easily spend 100+ hours sinking your teeth into, and I have done probably 60ish hours and still not close to the end of the game I think.

I'm motivated to do this content, despite it actually getting in the way of my bigger projects as of late. Simply due to the fact that I want it out. I have too many ideas sitting in the backlog, and the more I put out the more I grow.

Not just online following, but also as a person. Being able to share those ideas too, allows for more like minded people to meet.

It also sets a precedent, which allows me to make more content or books on those topics later on as well.

While I have been struggling lately. I think I'll be able to push through this, and succeed. I know for a fact I will be successful, at least some day.